Sunday, March 28, 2010

Ani Love

So... in high school I fell in love with a singer/songwriter/poet/genius named Ani Difranco. (That's Ahhhh-neee, not Annie).

To learn about who Ani is, go here. To hear my latest favourite of hers, go here. To hear a song I had forgotten about and just remembered how much I freakin' loved it, go here. Here are some of my favourite Ani lyrics/poetry - if you like what you read, youtube it, I know you won't be dissapointed!


"talk to me now" by Ani DiFranco

he said ani, you've gotten tough
'cause my tone was curt
yeah, and when i'm approached in a dark alley
i don't lift my skirt
in this city
self-preservation
is a full time occupation
i'm determined
to survive on these shores
i don't avert my eyes anymore
in a man's world
i am a woman by birth
and after nineteen times around i have found
they will stop at nothing once they know what you are worth
talk to me now
i played the powerless
in too many dark scenes
and i was blessed with a birth and a death
and i guess i just want some say in between
don't you understand
in the day to day
in the face to face
i have to act
just as strong as i can
just to preserve a place
where i can be who i am
so if you still know how
talk to me now


"Both Hands" by Ani DiFranco


i am walking
out in the rain
and i am listening to the low moan
of the dial tone again
and i am getting
nowhere with you
and i can't let it go
and i can't get through...
the old woman behind the pink curtains
and the closed door
on the first floor
she's listening through the air shaft
to see how long our swan song can last
and both hands
now use both hands
oh, no don't close your eyes
i am writing
graffiti on your body
i am drawing the story of
how hard we tried
i am watching your chest rise and fall
like the tides of my life,
and the rest of it all
and your bones have been my bedframe
and your flesh has been my pillow
i am waiting for sleep
to offer up the deed
with both hands
in each other's shadows we grew less and less tall
and eventually our theories couldn't explain it all
and i'm recording our history now on the bedroom wall
and when we leave the landlord will come
and paint over it all
and i am walking
out in the rain
and i am listening to the low moan of the dial tone again
and i am getting nowhere with you
and i can't let it go
and i can't get through
so now use both hands
please use both hands
oh, no don't close your eyes
i am writing graffiti on your body
i am drawing the story of how hard we tried
hard we tried

"thirty two flavors" by Ani DiFranco



squint your eyes and look closer
i'm not between you and your ambition
i am a poster girl with no poster
i am thirty-two flavors and then some
and i'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you're going to get hungry
and eat most of the words you just said

both my parents taught me about good will
and i have done well by their names
just the kindness i've lavished on strangers
is more than i can explain
still there's many who've turned out their porch lights
just so i would think they were not home
and hid in the dark of their windows
till i'd passed and left them alone

and god help you if you are an ugly girl
course too pretty is also your doom
cause everyone harbors a secret hatred
for the prettiest girl in the room
and god help you if you are a phoenix
and you dare to rise up from the ash
a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
while you are just flying past

i'm not trying to give my life meaning
by demeaning you
and i would like to state for the record
i did everything that i could do
i'm not saying that i'm a saint
i just don't want to live that way
no, i will never be a saint
but i will always say

squint your eyes and look closer
i'm not between you and your ambition
i am a poster girl with no poster
i am thirty-two flavors and then some
and i'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you might find you're starving
and eating all of the words you said


Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Am I Dying?

One of my favourite lines from Dumb and Dumber is when Lloyd tells the old lady in the scooter "Don't you go dying on me now!" hahahahahaha, okay now that that is out of the way!

So a lot of really wonderful things have been happening in my life lately, that's why I'm asking the question "Am I dying??" Sometimes thing just seem too good to be true!

Let's start with the most recent: my very dear friend Janet (who has been through a TON) was in a great mood today (which made me so happy) and she expressed her love and gratitude for me. Such a blessing! I love that girl. We have had some of life's highest highs and lowest lows together and even though we've been separated by oceans and continents and differences of opinion, we still manage to keep our friendship intact. So to Janet, I LOVE YOU. Thank you for being YOU and helping me to always laugh constantly!

Another exciting thing is that, I got my first paying gig as a photographer. Yup, that's right... I got paid $150 to photograph a rich Iraqi kid's birthday party. I actually made a common beginners mistake and ended up underexposing large chunk of my shots which is CRAP... (if you're into photography, contact me and I'll enlighten you) but I was able to fix the majority of them in photoshop... in the process, I also learned how to read histograms and also realized that my technique is crap! So all in all, it was such a learning experience that the semi-low pay doesn't even matter!!!

And finally, the last good thing to happen lately is I am learning how to take care of myself. It's really a difficult thing to master when you've never really pursued it before, but little by little, I am taking the necessary steps!

Woooooooooooo hooooooooooo!

Monday, March 15, 2010

Entrepreneurial




Today is one of those days where I thought I had it figured out and I suddenly got the big memo that reality is very different!






Sometimes I wonder if I'm cut out to do what I am attempting. More to come later...

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Have You Ever....


... avoided someone's phone call for weeks and then accidentally picked up one day because you forgot it was their number?? No?? Just me, then??? hmm okay.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

2. No, 6. No, 12 - Baker's Dozen... I told you that I'm crazy for these cupcakes cousin!




Well, the famous new york cup-cakery "Magnolia" has branched out to Dubai and being a fan of SNL's "The Chronic-what-cles of Narnia", I HAD to go and taste these babies... and boy was it worth it! When I get married, these guys are doing my wedding cake... MMMMMmmmmm...



Monday, March 8, 2010

The Literal Key to my Heart

Hey! I have a follower! Sweet! Love you Janet! I'd love to be able to officially follow people's blogs but I'm scared they would find out how often I stalk them and, we can't have that, now can we?

So, life is getting better and better by the day, hamdilallah! I am working on some big and exciting changes - some very thrilling obstacles ahead, my friends! For now, I am dreaming of owning this little beauty...





The Fleur de Lis Tiffany Key.... first of all, I come from a French Canadian background, so the Fleur de Lis is clearly to mark my ancestry... secondly, Tiffany Blue is my favourite colour, so that obviously I'm meant to own one... and third of all, every hard working woman deserves to treat herself once in a while so why not???? I'm just trying to justify my buying this for myself, which I clearly am not able to do... yet. I will keep you updated!